Soon

It's like a page of my life that I've been trying so hard to turn it.

I couldn't figure it out. I was stuck there. I had no idea what to do with my future. I asked myself 'what am I doing with my life' almost everyday. The question popped up when I saw someone successful, someone who were happy with what were they doing.

And then I asked for advices. What disappointed me the most was they just kept asking why didn't I just continue my studies in the previous university.
"I don't understand why you did that." They said.
Me neither.

I was so panic.
I moved furthur.
To someone more experienced.
Someone I barely met told me to continue what am I doing right now.
So I did.
I enrolled myself to another university.
The offer letter is now on my hand.
I wish this time I figured it out.
I wish this is the right choice.
And here, I will be turning a new page of my life.
Soon.
Very soon.

Best wishes.
To me, myself.

Dear housemates...

I just finished my diploma, never knew it could be that fast.

I actually cried when I left my hostel, it was really hard to smile while saying goodbye to them, my lovely housemates. I burst into tears as soon as they close the door, it was really heartbreaking, I didn't know why but I felt really sad. I didn't wanna leave them. There're lots of memories that I can't believe it could be that much, I'd think of them out of even the slightest thing.

I wont't forget the moment we went 99 speed mart and shopped for hour; the moment we laughed at "tuts my barreh" video; the moment we ate McDonald's ice cream together; the moment we rushed for assignments together; the moment we studied so hard and burned midnight oil for finals together; the moment we sang and produced MV together; the moment we had steamboat; the moment we countdown for new year; the moment we slept and woke up at 4 together just for McDonald's breakfast; the moment we joked; the moment we imagined something that would not happen forever; the moment we gossiped together.

I really appreciate the moment being together with them.

Never knew it could be so hard to say goodbye.
Never knew I would miss them that much.

I still remember the day I went back to hometown. They started a conversation in group, saying how empty the room was after we left. I couldn't hold it anymore and I just ran into study room and cried. They're so warm. They still have exam on the next day. I could imagine how they cried and studied at the same time.

I really love them, I'm blessed to be their housemates.

I won't forget the first met and the first conversation among us, it's about constipation and shit. Weird huh?
Yes, and they started to influence me with their weirdness.
I think that's the reason we became close, cause they're limitless.
So am I.

I wanted to post a photo of four of us but I realized we don't have one. Because they are already like family, I think. :)

I'll visit you guys frequently.

Loves,
Aly.

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It's rare for me to update twice in a month! It comes to 12th week of this semester, what else can we say besides time flies? Yes, time flies. It feels like this semester just started but you suddenly realized the finals is coming. And you haven't prepared for it, physically and mentally. No time to chill, like seriously, you just finished rushing for your assignments and coursework and planned to take a break or hang out with friends, but nah, the college just cruelly gives you the timetable of examination. 

Yes, I have been told year 2 is tough. I hardly believed it that time but now I just want to ask all the juniors to enjoy their year 1. Year 2 makes you feel like dying. Ahh, I can't imagine how I gonna survive degree years. Anyhow, I do enjoy my French class. Although the tutor is sometimes teaching too fast, she is still the best tutor for this semester, funny and easy going. A big shout out for you, mademoiselle! You successfully makes me fall in love with French. Merci beaucoup!

Again, finals is coming. Time for preparation is not more than a month. That is crazy. I still remember my housemates and I started preparing for finals one month before exam in semester two. So I am lack of time. Oh god bless me. 

Dear notes, 
it's my pleasure to rent you a place, 
which is my brain for you to live until the finals end, 
no rental needed, 
Sincerely, 
Alyson.

Okay, I know it's ridiculous but it's my style to communicate. Haha. Talking to anything makes me happy. Even talking to myself enlighten my day too. Forgive me if I sound weird. Urgh.

I tweet too much recently and I have to stop. If I was my own follower I would definitely get annoyed by those crazy and pointless and... sampat tweets. Urgh, someone stop my twitter addiction please, I'll give you a cookie.

I do not want to post all my nonsense on my blog but I'm already doing it. I'm sorry. I need a slap or punch.

I present you my favorite stuff, night sky.
Ahh, I love stars too.
End.

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十九/ 三

放学后等巴士，无聊地看着外劳搅和泥沙和石灰大概看了二十五分钟
宝贵的二十五分钟，眼皮都快盖下来了，
然后看见两个室友也走来排队等巴士，招呼都还没来得及打，巴士就来了
于是我不禁埋怨等了二十五分钟的人和等了三分钟不到的人搭着同一趟巴士
好不公平啊
人生本来不就这样嘛

后来从巴士站走到公寓的那一段路，
太阳很大，晒得让人不禁烦躁起来
然而一把雨伞融入不下两个好朋友之外的室友
我只好任由阳光往身上洒，顶着太阳加快脚步走
满脑子都是“三人行必有一人被忽略”这类的负面思考

这时忽然飘来一朵云，温和地挡着了太阳
天空变得蔚蓝了，
微风也阵阵吹来，轻轻地带走了刚刚的烦躁
脚步轻快了，心情顿时开朗，
嘴角也不觉地微微上弯
啊——
原来我也被这个世界温柔地对待着。

世界正美好着呢。